How I feel most days
Saturday, February 18, 2012
So I've been doing this postdoc thing for about 10 months now. It's really surprising how different being a postdoc is from being a student - but that's a good thing! It means I'm learning new things, unlike postdocs who are just data chugging like a cheap tech. I've written a review, coauthored a few papers some of which didn't get outright rejected, reviewed papers, applied for a few fellowships and even got one, am mentoring students (I currently have an undergrad, a very needy master's student, and a rotating grad student), presenting at conferences, leading committees, am currently writing the skeleton of an R01 and am taking a class as required by my fellowship. Oh yeah and producing (somewhat kickass) data. That's a long fucking list and there just aren't enough hours in the day. I am feeling overwhelmed to the point that I lost control of my normally publicly cool self and swore at the janky-ass lab printer. Très professionnelle.
Of course, it doesn't help that recently there have been two deaths (one a family member, one a family friend) in as many weeks and yet another sinus infection. Nonetheless, I need to find a way to balance out my responsibilities. I'm not sure how to do that, but I do know that it's a skill that I will need to be successful down the tenure track. But all I want to do is take a long nap.